figure it out, amanda.

i think my body refuses to adjust to being back in the states. i am not getting over this jet lag. i've been up since 10pm.

class was interesting today. i was actually calm and rational when explaining my feelings on the theme of our project. even though i'm going insane, when i talk about india, i make sense. pretty much everyone was super exhausted. Except for sam... she said she's never been better. it's crazy how different we all are.

Paul was pretty stressed. barely anyone was prepared to turn in their images. i turned in mine, but they weren't captioned properly. Post production did not start off the best.

I'm just so overwhelmed. I don't even know what to do. I think i want to change my major, but i don't know if i can. i have to figure out what GE classes i'm taking next session, but i don't even know where i will be living. I'm homeless. i might move to ventura because it's cheaper and i'll have to be there a lot next session. i don't know.

I went out to lunch today with adam, sam and co. At one point adam looked at me and said, "you're really heartbroken over this." then he said something about my spirit being crushed and how he wants the old amanda back. well, i want india back.

It's nice being able to talk to scott and justin again. I feel like i'm terrible company, though. all i can talk about is india. i'm so pathetic!

i don't even know who i am anymore.

i don't want to watch tv. i don't want to go shopping. i don't want to go to the movies. i don't want to take pictures. i don't want to do anything.

why can't i snap out of this?

actually, i kind of want to go walking. i think i'm going to make some time to do that and take my camera and see what happens.

Justin's leaving for hawaii tomorrow. what a bastardo.

now some awesomeness...
i got to check off something on my "things i have to do before i die" list... RIDE AN ELEPHANT.

check it:

Ganesh, Kannan, and Leshmi



maddy and becca


adam and josh



we got to feed them pineapples and bananas







then we got to bathe them


see some tricks









and last but definitely not least.... Leshmi gave us a shower!




peace.